A Quick Trip to Austin

We took a quick trip to Austin today to get Alli's second post placement report apostilled. :)
When we were driving by, I pointed out to Alli the McDonald's where we first picked up Sarah.
She said, "That is so weird to pick up somebody from McDonalds!"
I replied, "Well, remember, you were picked up from Walmart!"
She started laughing.  She said, "Yea, that might be even weirder because they wanted it to be the "garden department". LOL

I have to say, every time I drive by that McDonald's, I feel like weeping.  I don't know why.... Maybe because I feel sad for her old family; that they missed out on such an awesome little girl who has grown into a FANTASTIC teenager as of Thursday of this week. :)  Maybe it is because I remember how scared she must have been.... or Maybe it is because I am so thankful for her.   I remember that day like it was yesterday..... Sarah and Anna making friends in the McDonald's play land before they even knew they would be sisters..... :)

Anyhew..... Erika and Alli and I took the trip.  Anna is a library volunteer now, so she couldn't come and Sarah would rather NOT take a long trip if it isn't necessary. :)

When we got there, I had to pay for parking. Last time, the parking meter didn't work. I called a number and they said if I got a ticket to write a number down and it would be documented. I didn't, so never had to worry about it.  THIS TIME, I think I must have parked in the very same space! My first quarter DIDN'T work! IT ATE my quarter ! Then, I had a bunch of smaller change and it wouldn't take pennies.   I was stuck at 20 minutes.  Some nice person gave me two dimes which brought me to 32 minutes. :)  We gave an hour  to somebody else last week in down town Dallas, so I guess it was payed forward. :)

We really had a great time. :)
Erika being the family photographer she is, brought her camera. :)
Here are some snapshots of our trip.....

 Of course, we started out at the gas pump! 3.21 a gallon! Not bad.... ( I would have NEVER said that 3 years ago! :)

 We are inundated with these birds around here. :)

 The streets of Austin Texas

 Alli sketching.

 The State Capitol.  The state department is on the other side of the street. That is always how we find it.

 We were in Austin all of 30 minutes!   How do I know this?  We had to pay for parking.  We payed for 3o minutes worth. When we got back to the car, we had 2 minutes left! :)

 Alli's sketch

Enjoying the drive awake....

 Ummm. that is me taking a power nap because..... I needed some sleep.

that starbucks drink didn't do a THING! 

And the grand finale:  I was delirious with bad radio:

We had FUN!

What's Behind the Behavior...?

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 (I picked this picture because of all these little hopeful faces. This was taken from our missions trip back to Ukraine a few years ago, and was at Erika and Sarah's old orphanage.  The little boy in blue, was so sweet and cute and smiley, talking in Russian.  He was actually saying, "I'm going to take your glasses and break them!")
Heather Forbes might say, "What's driving the behavior?"  

I was talking with Mike this morning about how support group is going, and things I would love to cover.  One of those things has to do with what is behind a behavior  that isn't making sense to us.
Putting clues and signs together, may help us come to understand and then be able to address the behavior.  But for many of us, it does not come naturally to think about ,"What's BEHIND the behavior".

For the child who struggles with shame, low self worth or past trauma,  being exposed to failure is overwhelming, because it requires self inspection, and when they don't like themselves, or have a strong sense that others are going to reject them because of their seeming failures, or they are so full of shame they cannot bear it, then it is PARAMOUNT in their minds that they NOT deal with the reality they  are faced with (real or perceived) and do everything to avoid it.  They will fight to keep a semblance of self respect and perceived self worth through diversion.

"I'm NOT going to do that!"
"Why"?  we may ask.....  There will be no real answer.  We will perceive their behavior and tone as DEFIANT.... and if we move to "correct that defiance" ,   the battle that rages will be ALL ABOUT THE WRONG THING.... We will strive to win a battle, yet lose the WAR that is actually being waged on our children's hearts. 
The REAL WAR is against their very being.  The WAR that tells them that they are unlovable, unacceptable, unworthy... the war that has been waged against them from the very first point of trauma in their lives. For many of them, it began at birth, and EACH battle along the way was WON by that war with damning, condemning force.

So here we come in, a new force, and they see us as the enemy. They see that others who have been in our position as a parent have rejected them, hurt them and  betrayed their trust. They are so busy fighting in their own personal war, they don't realize that the true WAR is actually over.  They no longer have to fight for love, for  validation, for acceptance and we are ON THEIR SIDE!

Unfortunately, many times we act as if we are not.  We get caught up in the remnants of a dead war, and try to win an unwinnable battle, instead of leading our little trooper to a place of peace and rest.

So, back to the "I'm NOT going to do that!"

How can we deal with it? 
I remember when Alli first came home, I was told she was in the 4th grade, understood English perfectly, and was fantastic in spelling and math.   I pretty much found ZERO of that to be true.
How did I find that out?   Well, it didn't take long. :)  I assigned her to write a paragraph about something we were studying. 

And guess what she said, oh so "defiantly"! 
"I'm NOT DOING THAT!"  
Why not?
"I don't want to!" "School is stupid!" "This place is stupid!"  "You are not a real teacher!"  and I could go on.... but my favorite was, "Why should I have to listen to you? You're just an old woman from Texas!" :)  gee thanks. :)
In REALITY, she was trying to avoid the FACT that not only could she not spell, or write, she could BARELY read, AND she had VERY LIMITED understanding of the English Language. And she didn't trust me. She had no reason to.  I was the old lady from Texas.
Add to that TWO disruptions, past trauma, separation from bio siblings (I could go on and on ) and  I could instantly see that we were not dealing with writing a paragraph.  She was fighting for her very dignity.  After all, what would it look like if the new kid couldn't even put 3 sentences together?  Would she still be loved? Would she be accepted?  She didn't believe for a minute that she was even going to stay.  She didn't stay with anybody else and they all promised her a "forever family".

So what did we do?  Well, the first thing we did was establish relationship.  We headed for the rocking chair.   "It is ok.  We love you.  We are here for you.  Breathe with me.  Let's become one in our breathing.  And after about 10 minutes.  I addressed the issue with structured correction and teaching. 
"You know, maybe the truth is, that you don't want me to know that you don't even know what a paragraph is!"  I got a nod on that one. 
"I am so sorry.  I didn't know, and you know what?  It is OK.  This is NOT your fault!" 
"Did you know that your brother didn't learn to read well until he was almost 12?"  With that I got peaked interest.  Guess which one~! 
"The school teacher!"  LOL

In calming her and peaking her interest, I was then able to talk to her about the defiance in her voice and what she said. 
"You know, it is never ok to speak harshly to mama.  It is never ok to say "I won't!" when I have asked you to do something, because I will never ask you to do something wrong. (that is important they know that, because they may NOT know that! never assume)

Now, instead of saying "I won't!" How could you have said things differently to tell me what was really wrong? 
At first I got shrugged shoulders, and then I offered an idea, and then she did, and then I offered some humor and then she did.... and before we knew it, the REAL PROBLEM was revealed and SOLVED for the moment.  (The assignment was too hard for her to do on her own, so it was adjusted to her level)
Was there punishment involved? No.
WHY?
Because she apologized for her behavior and because her behavior was SHAME masked in defiance. She was trying to protect herself from more rejection and hurt. How do you punish shame? How do you consequence shame?  I can't.  I can only have compassion and understanding.

That is a small example of many MANY examples I could give over the past 15 months.  But each and every time, a battle was won. Not us against her, but ALL of us against TRAUMA, SHAME, REJECTION and HURT which is the real war.    We were on the same team the whole time. It just took her a while to see that we were her allies and not the enemy. :) 
(Do we do this perfectly every time. NO. We do not. Sometimes we get caught up in the moment and forget.... but that is ok, we are human, just like she is.  When we see we have gone down a dead end, we simply stop, turn around and head the right direction. :))
Those times of outward defiance are few and far between.  She has learned over the year to express herself properly, understand better and use her tools to keep control.  

As she realized each time that we were on her team...we were her ally, the trust which was greatly needed began to be built, not with faulty walls, but a firm foundation.  Each brick cemented in with love, to last a lifetime and to build a new life upon. 

For my support groupers:
I would like to ask that you keep track these next two weeks of how many times this week that your child(ren) are masking what is really going on underneath.... try to see what is driving their particular behavior and write down your response to it.  What were the results? :)

I would like to encourage my readers who are in the TRENCHES with trauma, that it gets BETTER. You will not stay there.... but you must look beyond the behavior and beyond punishing.  If what you are doing is not working.... it is time to try something new. :) 
(This does not have to do with natural consequences, that is another post altogether, and natural consequences are not punishments)

A Random Fun Day

 Today we had a nice day.  The girls made necklaces and bracelets with beads for art. Erika worked on the family blog header and Anna worked on writing. 
I am so thankful for my girls. :)

 Sarah's hair is really getting long!

 Alli enjoyed making her bracelet.

 Anna looked so pretty today. :)   That cup there is her own coffee mug. :)

 Erika concentrating..... She has some real talent. :)

New Header

Erika designed this new header. I think we will try it out for a while. :)
The top row is all our kids.  The next two photos on both sides are our daugther's in law.
Then there are the 10 grand children and some animals. I think she threw in our giant egg for fun. :)
And then there is that huge picture in the middle.  Yikes.  :)

The Perfect Balance

Wouldn't it be lovely if we lived in a world of perfect balance?  Well, we don't.... so that bubble is burst. :)  How is that for blunt?  LOL

We had our second support group meeting tonight.  I think it went pretty well.  I am always nervous about talking too much or saying something stupid.   I probably did both.  :)

I love the ladies that are coming.  They are such wonderful and committed moms!  We have room for more if anybody would like to join us! :)

Tonight one of the things we talked about what the need for both Nurturing and Structure. 
In the study guide we are using, Nurture is defined as: Affection and Mercy.  Structure is defined as: Correction.

I would call Nurture, the art of being attuned to our children at an emotional level, calming their fears and making them feel totally safe.  Structure, I would call gentle correction combined with instruction.

Our children need to feel safe, BEFORE we are able to instruct.  Many times I have heard people say, "But if they do something wrong, they need to be corrected! Otherwise, they are being allowed to get away with everything!"  "When they are adults, they need to be able to hear criticism from their boss".

I would like to address these two statements, because I think they are important!  It is TRUE, that children need correction and to not get away with doing wrong things. They need to learn.
It is also true that when our children are adults, they will need to be able to handle instruction from a boss or teacher, who most likely will not be familiar with BCLC or the Art of Gentle Discipline!

For the child who is healing, it is very,VERY important that they feel safety and love.  They need to know that if they have done something wrong, you will be there for them, you will still love them, and you will still LIKE them.  They need to know that you will keep them safe and that they are secure in your love.  If THIS step does not happen, no amount of instruction (structure) will penetrate the heart. Why?  Because the heart will not be open to receive it.  The heart will be too busy protecting itself.  Every defense will encircle that heart and it will be impenetrable.

Let's use an example:
Say your child has told an obvious lie.  They know they have done wrong, but are not about to admit it.
They are definitely in preservation at all cost mode.   You want them to confess that lie, but no amount of instruction is going to cause them to fess up. No threat, no instruction, no consequence, nada.

Let's say you know they have lied.  You can simply declare to the child with a mouth full of cookie crumbs.... "I see you ate the cookies that I asked you not to eat!"   Instead of "Did you eat the cookies?"
With a warm and sympathetic heart, it would be a good time to reassure them of your love for them.
Sit with them, breathe with them, love on them and help them to relax. 
(That is the nurture part)
THEN.... follow up the nurture part, when they are CALM, with instruction about why we do not lie, or why it was wrong to take the cookies. "Mom didn't want you to eat cookies because it would spoil your dinner!" 
Tell them that you feel sad that they disobeyed, but that you love them always. (more nurture mixed with instruction)    Give them opportunity to talk..
"BUT I WANTED THEM!" 
"I understand you did. But it is more important to obey mama!" "I will never let you starve! I love you!"  (instruction in family life. This is a concept they may not understand for a long time) 
And then, talk to them about why it is important to obey. It is pleasing to God to obey.  It is refreshing to the soul to obey. It brings us joy when we obey. Use some playfulness and role play to help them know how to respond appropriately.  You be the kid, let them be the parent, and then switch roles. 
This is gentle discipline in action! 

When our children's hearts are open to instruction, it is received well and we find that they work hard on permanent change!  They will become more secure and stable under our loving guidance. And that change will carry over into adulthood, where the children will be able to receive instruction from that boss. :)

So how do we know when to  nurture and when to implement structure?  For us, we seem to use nurture first and then teaching.  It has worked well.    When the children are doing well on a regular basis, ( responding well to instruction and feeling safe) and because we offer many hugs and affirmations during the day, we can go straight to instruction and they receive it well.

So we imperfectly try to find a perfect balance, and in time, we find each other through forgiveness, mercy and grace. :)

On Being Different

We have been going to gymnastics for a full school year with our home school group.  I remember the first time we were going, Sarah was nervous because she didn't want to answer questions about why her leg is missing, what happened, why her fingers are missing.  She would LOVE to just go and be part of the group!  After the first session, that was how it was all year.
But school has let out, and now the monthly free play is open to all.  We knew there would be a lot more kids there, and on the way, she started to get nervous.   "Oh mom, I'm not sure I want to go!"
"But Sarah, you LOVE gymnastics!" 
"I know, but there will be new kids and they will ask me questions!"
"So, what are you going to tell them?"
"I could tell them a shark bit my leg off!"  Alli was dying laughing.
"Or you could tell them be careful fishing in the lake!"  :)
"Or I could tell them I was just born this way!" 
"Yes, that would be good!"
"But then they will ask why and keep asking and I won't be able to just play!"
"So what will you do after you answer a question and somebody won't leave you alone?"
"Get mad?"
"Will that help?"
"No...."
"I'll tell them I answered, and now I want to play."
"That sounds great to me, although I like the alligator idea!"
:)
And then, she bravely went in and faced about 25 kids. 
And were there stares?   Yes.
Were there questions?    Yes.
Did she tell the alligator story?  No.
She said, "I was born without a leg and fingers."
Did somebody pester her to death?
Yes.
Did she handle it well?
VERY WELL.
"I've answered your question, now I want to play."
And she did.
By the end of the session, she was having a wonderful time.

I never dreamed of the conversations I would have to have with my children.
They are so brave. :)  And I am so glad they have each other!

Two Less Ukrainian Orphans!

There are two less orphans in Ukraine. :)  The Lord is so good!  Sergey and Tatyana have adopted 2 more little boys!  It is so wonderful to know that there are wonderful parents out there, willing and ready to bring home children and raise, nurture and love them!  Go and Visit Sergey and Tatyana's blog and give them a cheery word of encouragement! :)

Funnies for June

I already posted our first June funny here..

This morning Anna was diagramming a command sentence where the subject is understood. (YOU)
Instead she wrote ( U )..... and then there was an "R"   instead of are.
She said she was diagramming in TEXT!  No, dear, I don't think so. LOL

Erika was talking to her sister and I overheard her say, "Don't Hypervillinate"!   Instead of "Don't hyperventilate!"   :)

Today I put spare ribs in the crock pot for a late dinner.  We had our 2nd support group meeting and I wasn't going to be home until after 8:30.
I bought the kind with the bone in.  When I got home, Erika said, "That sure was a lot of work! It burned my fingers!" 
She had deboned every single spare rib and there was a big pot of shredded pork!   LOL 
Poor girl. :)

A Simple Summer Dance

Sunday School

This morning is our kickoff for Summer.... We will be studying Missions around the World.  I'm excited about it.  Our K-2 kids will be exploring Africa, Asia, South America and Philippines, visiting Missionaries and what they do in each of these countries, using a DVD program along with a study guide..  We have activities to go along with the program and I think they like it! :)
We will also add some other countries like Russia and Ukraine, as we know friends who live and work there as missionaries. :)

Today we learned about Mission Aviation Fellowship, and another family that moved to Africa to help existing churches implement Sunday School into their churches.  The kids got to see animals from Africa, and some of the cultural differences. 

I ordered Passports for each of them that look just like the ones above, and took their pictures today. When the passports arrive, I'll paste their pictures inside so they can have a pretend passport to stamp for each country we visit over the summer. :) 

We also have a map on our wall and will be adding photos of the missionaries we talk about, and put a push pin into each country we visit.

A Sweet Little Grand Lady.... :)

Isn't she just precious!!! :)  Little Olivia. 

ART and LADIES

 I love artwork. I am terrible at it, but like trying.  On the other hand, Miss Alli is quite a good artist.
I introduced her to one of my favorite keepsake books called, "The Country Diary of an Edwardian Lady" .  I don't believe it is in print any longer, but what a wonderful book!  I bought it years ago for the guys when we were doing sketch books. 
I REALLY LIKE sketch books, because when we are happy or stressed, they serve a wonderful creative purpose!

Here is a sample from the book

 Here is one of Alli's free hand sketches.

Another sample from the book..... love the handwriting!

 Another one of Alli's Sketches.  Time to introduce her to water colors. :)

A Family Funny

It was time for Miss Alli to brush her hair.  She asked, "Mom, has this brush been cleaned since I used it on the dog next door?"  ACK! 
No! It hasn't!   You used it on the dog?  It needs to be washed for sure!!!

"Ok"...... and then she went into the laundry room...
Anna asked, "Alli, why did you just put the brush in the laundry hamper?"
"So mama can wash it!"  "I always do!"

Hmmmm..... Anna and I looked at each other and cracked up laughing.....

  And now the mystery that has plagued me for the last year  has FINALLY been solved!  The scary part is..... I kept taking the brush OUT of the laundry basket..... so we have a new mystery.  
Everytime she put it IN, did that mean she was brushing some animal's hair?????  I can't even manage the thought.....

However, this brought up a funny from along time ago with ANNA!  She used a brush for the GOAT and I didn't know it.  We were messing around with the new computer and got this on Video. Too bad they used some weird contrast. :)


 In the background you can hear Anna say, "Mom you really shouldn't be using that brush.".. I ask why and she says "That is Sweetie Pie's brush!"...... :) "Sweetie Pie the GOAT!"

Ivy's New Blog

The Life if Little Eunice is no more...... It has graduated to "The Pursuit of Peace and Tranquility."
I still get to visit Ivy each morning and the grand kids and Marcus, as she updates with delightful stories and pictures. 
For some reason, I had a hard time getting it onto my blog roll, but after several tries, it finally worked! :)

It Sure FEELS Like Summer!

Sarah fell asleep reading her book on the front porch. :)

 Alli was all worried she wouldn't have playtime because of SCHOOL!  I told her, if you wait and complain, you will not have enough playtime, but if you sit with mama, I'll help you along and we'll get it done and then you'll have MORE play time! :)
She was SO  PROUD OF HERSELF!  Last year, she would have dug in her heels and put herself through all sorts of drama.  But now, she listens and really tries hard.
School will be out this year on June 13th.

Sarah and Alli,  just left with bikes and helmets to play on  the dirt hill down the street. :)
I remember doing the same thing as a girl.  I could go down dirt hills for hours with my little brother on my handlebars. :) 

No Pain No Gain??? OR

KNOW PAIN..... no gain!

I started my walking again after a long break.  I used to love going on 3 to 4 mile walks several years ago.  A couple of years ago I walked 2 1/2 miles with a friend each day, but our schedules changed and we no longer walk together.
We bought a treadmill and used it for a while, and then I hurt myself..... so I took a break.  Then Alli came, and I have used it very sparingly.

Now that we seem to be back to a normal routine, I feel like I can add my walking in once again.  But, I don't have the TIME for a 3 mile walk.  So I shortened it to a 1. 5 miles in the morning and 1. 5 miles in the evening.  I just want to tone up a bit and lose some of this "old lady gut" that seems to have developed over the last year.
I figured, Pilates, might be a nice added feature..... so I found THIS,

 at a GREAT BARGAIN, I might add!

Did I ask my Dr. if I should do this?  Why no! I did not! Why not?  Because I FIGURED he would say, "Sure go ahead and run your body into the ground until you can no longer move.  I'll see you on Tuesday." I figure I saved myself 80 bucks by skipping that first appointment, and heading for the second appointment. :)

The first day was fine.... the second day however something happened.  I can't tell if it is my hip or my lower back, but it HURTS!  That lady actually says "And now for the SPINE TWISTER or STRETCHER!"  I remember thinking to myself while trying to get into that position, "Can this be good for me?" 
The part of me that forgot I was almost 54 said, "Of course it is! She can do it and she isn't even breaking a sweat! "  The part of me that KNOWS I'm not only almost 54, but have a huge history with a bad back..... was saying, "Please, NO! Don't do this!" was simply ignored.

What I couldn't ignore was the all consuming pain.  So, my dear husband said, "You ran yourself into the ground! I can't believe you did that!" 
Thanks dear. I'm wounded enough already.
My girls were of no help.  They were offering to capture me on video camera and put it on America's Funniest Home Video...... "We'll make a fortune!" Uh, no thank you.  

So, to face some facts. I will never look like the Pilate girl.  Nor will I ever be able to twist my body into those unbelievable shapes and relax "one disk at a time......" My back has two chunks of disks thrown together; the upper part and the lower part.  The best I can do is heave myself down one disk section at a time. They said to do it with control. There was no control to it.  It was more like heaving a carcass onto the floor.  Even my breathing was wrong . I was breathing in when they said to breathe out, and out when they said to breathe in.....and I even tried to hold my breath to catch up.... that didn't really work...so I tried to breathe out extra long....that didn't work either.   Are they SURE this was a beginner's DVD????

I think I need some chocolate and a book while I convalesce..... :(   (and some ice, advil, and rest for who knows how long)

In Memory.....

My Dad........  Ralph who tried to join the army in the Korean War, but was refused because of type one diabetes.
Aunt Lee Lee
My sister    Vickie
My  Grand Mothers    Lee and Ellie
My Grand Fathers      Clifton and Grampa who served in the military.
My Uncle Clyde, who served in France and was wounded in World War 2.

Our Dad   Ed-  served in the Air Force
Our Mom Lois-   served in the Air Force
Our brother- Jim M
Our Gramma Doris M
Our Grampa Carl M

And a whole host of other friends and relatives who have left this life for eternity.

Dress Up

The girls LOVE to do dress up, and Good Will is a great place to find Dress Up clothes.  Today we scored big time!  Good Will was having a 50% off sale!  Even though they are older, they LOVE to play dress up. 

 We EVEN FOUND GLASS SLIPPERS! :)
 The dresses were under 4 dollars and the shoes were  2 dollars! :)  I love bargains that can bring loads of creative play!  I feel Cinderella plays coming on......Summer is going to be fun and creative!

 uh oh........ YIKES......   

 thank you mommy!

 My girls are growing up.... and NO! You cannot wear your dresses to church tomorrow. :) But they DID wear them to watch the 25th Anniversary DVD of Les Miserables... which was, BTW, simply FABULOUS!  ( we skipped over a couple of parts)  but it was GREAT!

twirling..... :)

Hand Prints

Last night, our social worker Kathi came over for our second post placement report. We had pizza and watched part of Les Miserables... and then, she brought out the hand print tiles.  Kathi is making a room full of hand prints for all of the children that have impacted her life.   What a GREAT idea!  So our girls, all 4 of whom she has blessed us with, by doing our homestudies and homestudy updates,..... did the hand print thing! :) 

 I just love Kathi! She has been not just our social worker, but a great friend, indeed!

 

 My these girls have GROWN. She looks like one of the girls! :)

Second Post Placement Report

This year plus has FLOWN by and we are getting ready to do our Second Post Placement Report. 
Miss Alli has come a LONG ways in the 6 months since the last one.  She has improved in reading, math and study skills.  She has improved VERY MUCH in COMMUNICATION! 

One of her biggest hurdles since she came to America has been in the area of communication.  I have written much in this blog and on FRUA regarding being able to communicate and understand English at the level needed to explain emotions, how you are feeling, why you are upset or why you are happy.
She was completely UNABLE to do this when she came to us. 
She was still communicating much like a toddler; crying when she was upset or disappointed, and having fits when she was frustrated or misunderstood. 

She has always done really well since she came home, except during the times of frustration and anxiety.  Those times shortened in duration and frequency within a few months, but she was still good for a good meltdown now and then.    It is almost always about a misunderstanding or anxiousness over an unknown  traumaversary anniversary.   

I wrote a post not too long ago called "What I Did Wrong."  Since that time, things have gone REALLY good.  I have noticed that when there is a struggle the breakthrough to  a better and more secure relationship is right there to hold onto!  We just have to grab the opportunity and run with it.

I hope that is an encouragement to those of you struggling.  

What she has learned to do in the last year, but especially the last 6 months, has been to accept that sometimes she doesn't know the answer or that she has misunderstood.  She has also REALLY been able to communicate MUCH better and express her feelings with WORDS.  YEA!

We are moving on to a new phase of life.  Before we know it, she is going to be a teenager! (February)
YIKES.... That will make 4 teenage girls in the house. :)

I LOVE it! :)

Alli already knows that our social worker is coming, and she was not a bit nervous.  She even said she needs to get her room cleaned and  asked if she could come over for pizza! :)
Now that is progress! :)
After this, we will have two more post placements to do.  One will be next year at this time, and the other one the year after!   YEA!

So.... was that reflection in my computer screen correct???  Why yes it WAS!.... (  I just saw Alli carrying two pullets (chickens) calling them Lucinda and Jane.... Up into the tree they went....... LOL
 

I bet they are wondering how they are going to get down! :)

SUUUUPEERRRR MINICH!

Alli saw some old video of Anna and Sarah saying they were "Super Genius"......a couple of weeks ago.
Tonight she said, "I'm not a Minich, I'm a SUUUUPPPPERRRR MINICH! :)

Anna Scores a Guitar!

Anna has been looking for a guitar for a few months.  She was wanting to buy one online but before we did, I decided to stop at the local pawn shoppe.  I have driven by that place a million times and never stopped.  It is really a nice, family run business.  They had several musical instruments including this Mitchell Guitar!  It was a great price and better yet, it sounded really nice.  It is really easy to play the chords and make them sound good. :)
YEA!  I love good deals!

I think she likes it! :)

Bedtime

One of my readers wrote to me tonight and asked about bedtime.  How do you get somebody to go to bed who isn't used to being told to go to bed, or doesn't want to?  (paraphrase)

Many of us have adopted older children who not only have extreme trauma backgrounds, but also lived in orphanages where the rules were rather lax.  They didn't grow up in functional families, obviously, so it is VERY NEW to them to be told, "It is time for bed!"

Sometimes their reactions are negative.  "I don't want to?"  or "Why do I have to?" 

Establishing routines is VERY important for ALL kids, adopted or not.
Communication skills are usually VERY POOR when our kids come home, especially international kids. The communication issue is HUGE.  They may not understand what is expected, or they may complain in a way that seems more rebellious than it is.  "NO! I won't go to bed!"  My not be what they are actually trying to say.  They may be saying, "I don't want to."  Or , "Do I have to?"  But with limited English skills, and the "halted" Russian or Eastern European Accent, it can seem like they are saying "NO! I WILL NOT!"  LOL..... I remember Erika sounding that way all the time when she was first home. 

Alli came home at 11.  We simply went back to our old bedtime routine that we had when each of the girls was newly home. (newly, meaning the first YEAR) 
We started the bedtime ritual of teeth brushing, baths, pj's. and then we went into the room and read a good story.  The kids LOVE stories, even big kids. :)   This way, we weren't saying "Go to bed!"  Instead they were already ON their beds, intently listening to a good story.  We would finish, pray with them and tuck them into bed, without them realizing what was happening. "Hey, I'm in bed and ...... yawn... I am kinda tired.... zzzzzzzz." :)

As the kids become more comfortable and assimilate into family life, bedtime routine can be less intense for us.  We don't always HAVE to read a story. Sometimes we put on a "Story CD".... and just kiss everybody good night. 
Once the routine of bedtime is established, it works like clockwork. :)

Saving Aesha

 (photo from google)

You can read the long story about Aesha here.
She is the young lady from the cover of time magazine who is from Afghanistan.  Yes, I did say young lady.  She is 22.  She came for reconstructive surgery, but that surgery cannot happen, yet.  WHY?  Because Aesha is more like a 3 year old than a 22 year old.

I have never seen a clearer picture of what trauma can do to a person, and  how it can cause them to be stuck emotionally where the initial trauma began.  This tells me, that most likely her entire life has been one of trauma. 

She was sold off to the taliban to settle a dispute along with her little sister (the article said baby sister, I sure hope that isn't true) , where there were 10 brothers.   She never even met her husband, because he was fighting a war.  The first time she met him, was when he disfigured her face for running away.  

Aesha has gone from family to family and has gone through something like 11 roommates.  She is difficult and extremely needy.  She climbs in her roommates lap for affection, just like that of a small child. 
Heart breaking......

Trauma knows no boundaries.  There are broken people all over this world who have experienced the unspeakable, and may never recover.

I am so thankful for those who understand trauma, and have been able to share their expertise so that those of us who live with the fallout of childhood trauma  each and every day, can facilitate true and lasting healing. 

This article just made me want to give my kids a hug.  I pray that Aesha's helpers come to understand her real needs and that she will very much need to be accepted as a 3 year old before she can be 22.

The Things You Find When You Google!

I noticed somebody googled "clothes stretcher" and landed on our blog here....
I hope they didn't get too excited because ours is NOT for sale! :)  LOL